Have you ever wonder what is it in your life you must do? What is that thing that you have to complete or to learn?

Some people said, learning is never ending. They will find ways to study, to gain knowledge, to feel, to be perceived and be smart. Some prefer to live their life with enjoyment and contentment. Some live a life in a journey of learning that is so different from other people, they learn about spiritual, about what is life, about love and about anything that can bring them closer to the source - that is, God. Now you see, everyone of them is right about learning. But the problem arise when each of them tried to convinced each other that what they are thinking about or what they perceived learning as is correct. They get into fights, quarrels and debates to insist on their opinions and views.

What is the point? Why force your thoughts on other people? Those who won, get away feeling more superior and happy while those who lost felt so bad about themselves, having doubts and cursed the winners in the meaningless debatings. Sometimes, 'losers' get so extreme that they decided to use excuses like 'God sent me to save this world' or 'God wants me to do this' to harm another. Again, what is the point?

We all die one day. Face it. I might die tomorrow, you might die anytime, people can not choose their time to die. So why do we still try so badly to prove to other people that their God is the true God instead of living their own life loving their own God and live in peace?

If there is a choice between living a long but meaningless life and living a short yet meaningful life, which will you choose? Of course most of us will say we choose the latter at the drop of a pin. But is that really the case? Just think about his, have we really living the life we chose with our words? Most of us live a life of dull, meaningless days that kill us inside days after days. But what do we do? We denied and we conformed to those who choose to live a life they want or they lead. What happened next is that we complained, we whined, and we fought with those at the top that they do not care enough, do not really want to make positive changes in our life. Guess what? It is TRUE they do not care. But do you think complains, whining and quarrels can get what you want? It only brings more troubles, more sorrows and disappointments.

Does it worth it to live this life?

To wake up everyday realizing you have lost your smiles, your passion for life, for food, for love and for everything? To live your life learning about how to suck up to other people's ideas, views, opinions? To sleep your days off knowing you have forget to laugh truly, to cares from within, to know the truth?

What is worthy? What is love? What is happiness? What is joy and finally what is this peace that sounded familiar yet never truly experienced? Now, the final question is - where is God? Where do we find Him/Her?

Is God in our hearts? In the universe? Everywhere? Where exactly?

Now my question is, dear God, where are You?

I am too stupid to get Your hints, too lost and confused to find You and also too tired to search for You. Dear God, have you forgotten me? Have You decided to ignore this little, tiny me in this great world of the infinite universe? Have You?

Some went searching for Him/Her in the forests, near the waterfalls, at quiet places, at other countries and all over the world. But really, WHERE IS GOD?

ii will always believe... 10/16/2010 10:24:00 PM

I have been living in Singapore ever since my mama popped me here and never in my life did I realised Fair Price NTUC makes deliveries! Right to your door steps and it's even cheaper than flower deliveries. WOW.

www.fairprice.com.sg

Though the prices of the groceries are not as cheap as other shops, examples like the prices of Dove soap bar costed so much more when compared to shops like 'Tomato' so and so; nevertheless, the easy convenience of simply typing on pc and expecting your deliveries within the same day when you ordered your stuff. That is, if you ordered before 9.30am.

You just simply pay a whooping of $8 for every orders that costed $100 and below and $5 for $100 and above.

WOW. So much for the geeks who prefer to stay at home huh?

ii will always believe... 10/14/2010 08:19:00 PM

I couldn't believe I spent the night cramming my blog with a horror story. Well, it's been a long time since I came up with horror... I don't think it was scary enough and I think if ah mei read it, she might laugh. LOL!

But hey~ Since there's nightmares and weird thoughts, I might as well turn them into stories. However Meys Beach was the first attempt after, like, many donkey years? Inspiration from Rainie's latest horror movie. Well... I am happie aboutthe story I came up with but time to hit my pillow~

Next time, maybe, I will come up with more blood and glore. Maybe. Or maybe not. Haha~

ii will always believe... 10/14/2010 08:07:00 AM